Weeds and Weed

I don't have fancy cable. I can't justify spending that much money to watch one or two shows. Instead, like many, I wait for the dvd sets to be released. Then, I have a marathon day. recently, I gathered up "Weeds" and "Entourage".

I think I expected too much from "Entourage". Yes, I did find it amusing. I think Pivens is the best part. He makes the show. Without him, would I still be interested in watching? I don't feel connected to any of the characters. I have no desire to learn more about them nor am I on the edge of my seating, waiting to see what they'll do next. That's disappointing when it comes to a show.

I want to be emotionally involved. I want to be motivated to turn off my radio and turn on my tv. Give me something to be moved and inspired by. Make me nervous or uncomfortable. That didn't happen with "Entourage". All I was left with was the urge to overspend, wanting to drink and buy a Hollywood Hills home. I'll get right on that last one....

"Weeds" is fanatastic. Who thought I'd care about an older, white lady pushing drugs? Not I. Why do I love it so very much? Because once again it's the Underdog and I am a big fan of underdogs everywhere. This woman is doing what she feels she needs to do to survive. Even if she's out of her element. I don't do drugs. I haven't ever experimented with a drug in my life.
I could be a medicinal user if I had the desire to be and this frustrates many people.

You would think that with my health issues, I would be making copious amounts of special brownies for myself. They'd be perfect to pack for lunch and picnics! I am in constant pain and sometimes that pain stresses me out. I don't know how to live my life due to the pain or I can't work at certain jobs due to pain. Many nights I don't sleep due to pain. I simply explain it as insomnia. When you are trying to work a regular 40 hour job, having health issues and holding onto a job become challenging. I manage.

I don't like the idea of collecting disability because I would be watched. Yes, I am in a lot of pain. Sometimes my left leg goes completely numb - down to my toes! But I still HAVE to go out dancing. Once in the music-trance, I am saved. I am one with music and happy. I forget the pain and dance, dance til I can't breathe, but still keep on going.

Of course most people would argue that I'd be ripping off the State and the taxpayers if I can dance. Why not just work a regular job? You don't live in my body. You have no idea what I go through. I don't feel sorry for myself and I don't lie in bed, crying wondering - why me? I never have, not even as a child. Music is my drug. If people can have their medical weed cards, why can't I have a medical dance card?