I know it's been awhile....things are out of control right now. I am working early mornings and in the evenings,too. Two jobs, close to 55 hours a week with extra massage appts. I'm stock piling money for the dry season. There's so much I want to go into detail about....
First off, I'm working at a high end spa. It'll look great on my resume. Plus, the people seem like good people. I hope I go to work every day and am glad to be there. Today I was paid to be the practice dummy for the esteticians. They waxed my brows, arms and lip. I was talked into it. It wasn't so bad. I hope to get a facial,too. Maybe this will turn out to be the best job ever!!
I can't wait for Halloween! I am going as a punk pirate. I'm gonna be the best one!! I don't care if a third of the nation is going as a pirate; I am one of a kind. I need to get to bed. I am beat!
Monday, October 23, 2006
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Jesus Built My Self-Esteem
One of my friends was recently dumped. The reason? Jesus. Jesus has a plan for all of us. His planned included a good Christain woman and lots a babies. Is Jesus behind many break-ups?
I don't think many of the men I dated were religious. I think they were merely insecure and confused and honestly, not the best choice for me.
I've had a man say to me,"Where have you been all my life?" (beat) "I can never see you again."
I am pretty sure he ended up regretting his words. He's getting married now. I think it's a great thing for him. Yet, the times I have been with another man and happen to run into him, he has shown very childish, jealous behavior. All I can do is let it go.
As for my plan...can I see the blueprints? Just a glimpse.
I don't think many of the men I dated were religious. I think they were merely insecure and confused and honestly, not the best choice for me.
I've had a man say to me,"Where have you been all my life?" (beat) "I can never see you again."
I am pretty sure he ended up regretting his words. He's getting married now. I think it's a great thing for him. Yet, the times I have been with another man and happen to run into him, he has shown very childish, jealous behavior. All I can do is let it go.
As for my plan...can I see the blueprints? Just a glimpse.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
This I Know
I need to cut down on my drinking. I went to the doctor the other day. I really need to pay more attention to my eating habits and up my cardio. ( I actually miss the days when I used to spend 3 hours in the gym. ) I read something about drinking increasing your odds of breast cancer.
Not only do I have to worry about cervical cancer (I am officially too old for the vaccine and have never had a child. Thus, uping my risk.) but now I have to cut down on the booze. I probably drink way more than most people. I actually enjoy the taste of alcohol. Like some people like chocolate at the end of their meal, I enjoy a good whiskey or vodka cocktail. Beer and pizza is a perfect night for me.
I have been drinking steadily since I was bout 11. I drink to sleep sometimes. I have can take alot of the daily pain, but sometimes it's too much and I spend months not sleeping properly. I know I average on one good night of sleep a year. When I drink to sleep - those nights don't count as deep, restful sleep. They are just numbing. I'd like to belive since I am older and wiser (just a wee bit) I no longer need to abuse myself. The goal is to cut out drinking for a long time. Let's try 6 months and see what happens.
While writing that, I had the realization that I really have changed my self abuse patterns. I have made more of a commitment to being alive. I'm not dead like I thought I'd be at this age. I'm ok with living well into my 80's or whatever...sorta. I haven't cut myself in years or etched in words into my skin or whatever. I'm no longer agoraphobic. I do like to leave my house. I love being on the road most of all.
Lately, I have been listening to a lot of music. I am trying to find my voice, myself. it makes me happy. I need to finish my drink, this cartoon, and get to bed.
Go listen to Juliette and the Licks if you haven't already. they put on one of the most amazing shows!!
Not only do I have to worry about cervical cancer (I am officially too old for the vaccine and have never had a child. Thus, uping my risk.) but now I have to cut down on the booze. I probably drink way more than most people. I actually enjoy the taste of alcohol. Like some people like chocolate at the end of their meal, I enjoy a good whiskey or vodka cocktail. Beer and pizza is a perfect night for me.
I have been drinking steadily since I was bout 11. I drink to sleep sometimes. I have can take alot of the daily pain, but sometimes it's too much and I spend months not sleeping properly. I know I average on one good night of sleep a year. When I drink to sleep - those nights don't count as deep, restful sleep. They are just numbing. I'd like to belive since I am older and wiser (just a wee bit) I no longer need to abuse myself. The goal is to cut out drinking for a long time. Let's try 6 months and see what happens.
While writing that, I had the realization that I really have changed my self abuse patterns. I have made more of a commitment to being alive. I'm not dead like I thought I'd be at this age. I'm ok with living well into my 80's or whatever...sorta. I haven't cut myself in years or etched in words into my skin or whatever. I'm no longer agoraphobic. I do like to leave my house. I love being on the road most of all.
Lately, I have been listening to a lot of music. I am trying to find my voice, myself. it makes me happy. I need to finish my drink, this cartoon, and get to bed.
Go listen to Juliette and the Licks if you haven't already. they put on one of the most amazing shows!!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)