I haven't spoken to one of my friends in a long time. Possibly close to 2 years. Years ago, she told me she didn't want to deal with any of the negative stuff of my life because she deals with that stuff at work. (She's a social worker.) Anything else is ok though. Gee, thanks! Slowly, I've stopped sharing things with her. At first, it was small things. Then, when I became ill 2 years ago, I stopped all contact.
It didn't happen right away. It took a couple of months. I had sent out a group e-mail informing my friends why I'd dropped out of the social scene. I did go into some details. I didn't try to downplay my condition; I didn't want people to over-worry either. Not a simple task. This particular friend completely ignored me. My birthday came along and she didn't get me anything. So I stopped seeing her. I stopped making an effort to call her or let her know what was/is going on in my life. Besides, it was probably too negative for her.
A few weeks ago I received an e-mail from her. It was 2 sentences...something about how this book was so moving and amazing and it made her cry. "Only the second book to make me cry in my life." It was "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult. It's about a girl who was conceived to be her sister's genetic bank. Anytime her sister needs bone marrow or blood stem cells, she's in the hospital,too. Neither of the girl's have friends because they are always in the hospital. I read this lame book in a few hours. I wasn't that moved. Later, I was pissed.
This book, the one about a girl and her health issues is the one that moved my friend. Yet, she can't be a part of my life because it's all too much for her. I don't get a 'Get Well' card or anything. Fuck her! I just hope that none of her kids ever end up with serious health issues. She might abandon them since it would mean her life wasn't all about fake rainbows and butterflies. I didn't even respond to her e-mail. Nor am I including her in my life. She doesn't even know where I'm working, that I'm starting school on Monday or that I have and have had a boyfriend for awhile. I can't believe she doesn't see the insult in her e-mailing me. WTF?!?
