Dreams, Hello????

I can't remember you.

I am wrecked. I need to stop using , choosing those words. I've been in a lot of physical pain. Partially because my job is physical. The pain is a bit emotional; I'm angry because I have such a shit job. I'm storing that anger in my body. All not good. I had to finally ask a friend for help. She worked on me for close to two hours;Cranial, NER, Hendreckson, etc...

After the session, I could hardly stay up. I felt like I needed to sleep for two days. I didn't even think about food even though I'd onnly eaten an apple earlier. All I wanted was my bed. Instead I went to the bf's house and we drove off for food. I needed his hugs,too. Those are always healing.

I needed to sleep because I needed my body to catch up to the healing process. I need to work, to fuction, to continue with life. I wanted to go out but I pysically couldn't do it. My bf had to help me undress and dress for bed and I cried. I cried because I have a difficult time allowing anyone to see me like this. Much less him helping me dress for bed. I slept hard that night. I went somewhere far away. I dreamt dreams I can't recall...only pieces float through my mind. Pieces like body parts, caves, sea journeys, but not a thing I can put together.

Today I woke up late. I slept in LATE. For me, nowadays, 10:30AM is late. I couldn't move from the bed. I was in deep sleep coma. All parts of me were aching. I couldn't walk fast or stand long....meaning.....I had to miss The Warped Tour. *sadness* No choice. Physically, there was no way I could walk around all day, stand or be in the sun. I have discovered, ever since my "coma", I can't let my body become overheated. Even running around doing errands can be too much sun for me and then, my head begins to throb. The sun issue along with the body not working right all pointed to having to stay home and rest.

I didn't stay in bed all day and wallow. Instead, I got up slowly and went to the movies with my lovely bf. We grabbed food and watched "Nancy Drew". I liked it!! Spent the day doing some errands. But I did become over-heated. Even a random guy at the video store asked me if I was okay. Dang, that bad,huh? Went to my bf's house and slept. There were many more crazy dreams. Ones I can't recall.

The best part of the day was waking up, watching You Tube; Hong Kong Phooey, Atom Ant, Captain Caveman. There was way too much food consumed and now I am off to bed. Who knows when I'll wake up (I'm watching old school Batman on AMC now.) ? Prolly just in time for work.
I care so little about work lately that I rarely iron my clothes. They are lucky I even showed up! I have gone on job interviews. I am hoping for the best. I do feel I'll end up where I need to for the time being. Patience. It's a difficult task when you are financially struggling though. Regardless of everything, today was a good day cuz I was happy. Maybe tomorrow I'll recall my dreams.