One Week

Tattoo is done.
I know I'm an adult but I still feel like I have to hide my tattoos from my folks. It was so fitting to have my new tattoo, the one J inspired, to be done a week to the day he left. He left me. I have to remind myself of that. I have to think of all the negative things about him. What didn't I like? This way it's easier to let it go. Easier to heal and not miss out of life.

I didn't take any pics during the process. I've gotten over some of my fears,I guess. The tattoo gun didn't scare me like it used to. The sound always made me jump. reminds me of being in the hospital as a child. This time - nothing. ACE!

The lettering did not hurt. Seriously. I was surprised. Maybe a little part, but not really. I think it was all done in about 45 minutes. The part that hurt the most was when Andy would wipe away the blood. Harsh towel against raw skin. Owwwww. I was happy when it was done. It was now a part of me.

Andy suggested adding leaves as a border. He took out his sharpie and dre a rough sketch. I tried to watch him. He said,"Don't look yet." When he was done, he had me get up and look in the mirror. It wasn't bad. I asked him what it'd cost me. Andy said,"Nothing. I'll just add it in."
I thought about it for a moment.

"Ok. You're here so let's do it."
Andy took a quick break and ate. My friend and I chatted. The skin burned but I was so thrilled with it and couldn't wait to show it off.

Andy suggested doing the leaves in green. I thought he was just going to keep going in black. When I returned to the station, he had 6 little cups of color. He was gonna get fancy. The artist in him. I have to say, Andy (at Metamorphic Tattoo) takes great pride in his work.

Ok, so maybe I didn't think this color part out as much as I should have because it hurt like a motherfucker!!! The leaves took over a larger space. The parts on my bicep made me sympathize with a cow. I felt like a slice of meat being cut into. eeeeeeek!! But the wiping of the blood...FML.....I was a piece of raw meat. I was pretty sure I was keeping still.

The plus was the hot guy in the room. He was getting something added to his back. He came over and stood over me to watch. I think he was checking me out. I should have talked to him but I was busy concentrating. Still hot.

Done. Andy cleaning it off was the worst moment of the entire tattoo. This time I was able to squirm and laugh and yell all at once. He laughed at me. Told me he does the same;laughs when it hurts.

Andy demanded I return in 2 weeks to touch up Bear. He said there are some spots where the black dropped out. He isn't charging me. I told him I wasn't sure. I told him I had to psych myself up to come back in 2 weeks. So I'll be back under the needle soon. Eeeep! At least, I didn't sit around being sad today. I'm moving on.

Oh, work in the AM. Blah. But hey, Vegas on Thursday. I charged my entire trip on my credit card. Kinda fucking myself but I felt I needed to do it. Wish me luck.